i tried to type a break up message 3 freaking times
and the stupid phone hanged on me 3 times.
trying to make my decision more difficult.
every single time the phone hanged i asked myself if this is what i really wanted.
every single time i thought no.
but i still typed it anyway.
what irony.
its like even the phone is protecting him.
or maybe its just that the fate between us is not over yet.
cried in the shower.
i guess its more economic.
saves tissue. saves me from mopping up after myself, clearing all the wet spots,
spares my work/paper/whatever im working on from all the damp and wet patches.
called elina and started stoning.
cant do anything properly.
cant read, cant play games. just sat there and stoned.
i dont know if its right or wrong.
i know this will hurt me a lot,
and i know i will regret it to bits, i always do.
and i really hope im wrong.
for once i dont want to be right.
我真的舍不得。
很久没有这么痛过了。
很想睡了觉起来回到以前的时候。
可是这可能只是妄想。
maybe this is the end after all.
